Monday, March 23, 2009
Suki's Latest Trick
With nothing new to report this evening, I thought I would share Suki's most recent feat of amazement... balancing on the towel rod in the bathroom!
Saturday, March 14, 2009
An Autobiography in Five Short Chapters
Chapter I
I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost... I am helpless. It isn't my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.
Chapter II
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I'm in the same place, but it isn't my fault. It still takes a long time to get out.
Chapter III
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in...it's a habit. My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately.
Chapter IV
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.
Chapter V
I walk down another street.
~ Portia Nelson
I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost... I am helpless. It isn't my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.
Chapter II
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I'm in the same place, but it isn't my fault. It still takes a long time to get out.
Chapter III
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in...it's a habit. My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately.
Chapter IV
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.
Chapter V
I walk down another street.
~ Portia Nelson
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Giving Back
Really?! The last time I posted was in November?!?! Wow, you would think that either my life is so exciting I can't find time to write, or my life is so boring I have nothing to write about... Unfortunately it's closer to the second option.
School has been good, but busy. I have actually been doing some work lately, so that's good! The holidays were great, probably the best I've had in 10 years or more. I was beginning to feel a little bored in January, so I started to step up my social life. I made all those phone calls to people I hadn't seen in forever and set up lunch dates, dinner, movies, etc. It's been really nice to see some old friends again! And I function better when I'm busy anyway. I got to spend one glorious weekend with friend, M, last month! She was my Valentine and we had a fabulous time together!! I think my dad and his side of the fam will be here to visit in April and I'm really looking forward to that. And the biggest news is that my little brother, who lives in VA, is planning to move out here this summer! I'm sure there will be much more about that later...
In my boredom I started to feel like I needed to take a more active role in my life, including doing things for other people. Now, I don't have a lot of money or time to donate, but I figured little steps can change the world, right? So, at the prompt from M, I joined Facebook's Once a Month Charity Club, I donated blood (actually, I tried to donate blood, but my iron was too low, so now I'm taking supplements so I can donate in April), and I volunteered to judge the Pikes Peak Regional Science Fair yesterday. I know it doesn't seem like much, but it's a start! Over the summer I had to do 24 additional hours of community service, and I did them at the Humane Society. I actually really enjoyed it, and I am thinking about trying to do something like that again after the semester ends (minus the pesky court order).
School has been good, but busy. I have actually been doing some work lately, so that's good! The holidays were great, probably the best I've had in 10 years or more. I was beginning to feel a little bored in January, so I started to step up my social life. I made all those phone calls to people I hadn't seen in forever and set up lunch dates, dinner, movies, etc. It's been really nice to see some old friends again! And I function better when I'm busy anyway. I got to spend one glorious weekend with friend, M, last month! She was my Valentine and we had a fabulous time together!! I think my dad and his side of the fam will be here to visit in April and I'm really looking forward to that. And the biggest news is that my little brother, who lives in VA, is planning to move out here this summer! I'm sure there will be much more about that later...
In my boredom I started to feel like I needed to take a more active role in my life, including doing things for other people. Now, I don't have a lot of money or time to donate, but I figured little steps can change the world, right? So, at the prompt from M, I joined Facebook's Once a Month Charity Club, I donated blood (actually, I tried to donate blood, but my iron was too low, so now I'm taking supplements so I can donate in April), and I volunteered to judge the Pikes Peak Regional Science Fair yesterday. I know it doesn't seem like much, but it's a start! Over the summer I had to do 24 additional hours of community service, and I did them at the Humane Society. I actually really enjoyed it, and I am thinking about trying to do something like that again after the semester ends (minus the pesky court order).
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Blush!
I hardly ever watch reality TV, save for a few shows... So You Think You Can Dance, Celebrity Rehab, and American Idol. I think that's pretty much it... until I came across a certain show on Lifetime. It's called Blush: The Search for the Next Great Makeup Artist. I love this show!!! Anyone who knows me knows my love of all things makeup! I would totally rock on this show!!!! Except that I would probably be one of the crazies who got all fired up and fought with the hot mess, train wreck, freak show known as Maxi!
Spinning
I'm not sure why, but after reading my dear friend M's blog for the first time in what seems like ages, I can't stop crying. I miss you, M! So much of what you say I feel like I can relate to; like we share a brain! I wish we were closer to each other! Although now, instead of needing a co-pilot for psycho-girl drive-bys, I just stalk people on myspace :)
I've just been feeling kind of raw lately... Doing therapy is hard. Grad school is hard. I had to go back to therapy (which is recommended for all of us poor grad students). Therapy is hard. Relationships are hard. I am lonely. I am tired of having to do it all alone and all by myself.
My aunt and uncle have abandoned me this year for Thanksgiving, so I am having my very first Thanksgiving at my teeny tiny apartment. I also decided to go visit my dad for Christmas. For the first time in 25 years I will not be spending Thanksgiving or Christmas with my ever dwindling family. I can't decide if this is going to be the most painful or the most cleansing holiday of my life.
I just remembered that I made Tension Tamer tea! Going to drink tea and relax a little... Lots of cooking to do tomorrow!!
I've just been feeling kind of raw lately... Doing therapy is hard. Grad school is hard. I had to go back to therapy (which is recommended for all of us poor grad students). Therapy is hard. Relationships are hard. I am lonely. I am tired of having to do it all alone and all by myself.
My aunt and uncle have abandoned me this year for Thanksgiving, so I am having my very first Thanksgiving at my teeny tiny apartment. I also decided to go visit my dad for Christmas. For the first time in 25 years I will not be spending Thanksgiving or Christmas with my ever dwindling family. I can't decide if this is going to be the most painful or the most cleansing holiday of my life.
I just remembered that I made Tension Tamer tea! Going to drink tea and relax a little... Lots of cooking to do tomorrow!!
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Sibling Rivalry
My teacher didn't end up approving my blog for class. I guess it was too much trouble... Oh well. I'll just have to do it the old fashioned way!
So, things have been pretty good lately. School is crazy stressful, but that is to be expected. I just learned how to do a bunch of fancy data analysis on SPSS, and that makes me feel super smart! I got my first 2 real cases at my practicum site, so I will actually be able to practice doing individual therapy! That is very exciting for me because last week I was feeling a bit out of sorts in comparison with the rest of my class.
Unfortunately, not everything is as good as my professional life. Then again, nothing ever is... Last week my brother asked me for a favor which I could not accommodate. Now he is not speaking to me. I think other siblings must go through this stuff all the time, but my brother and I have not gone this long without speaking in almost 10 years; not since his accident. Now, because I couldn't do this one thing for him, he is punishing me. Now there's one more man to add to the list of men in my life whose relationships with me are clearly conditional. I just never thought it would be him...
So, things have been pretty good lately. School is crazy stressful, but that is to be expected. I just learned how to do a bunch of fancy data analysis on SPSS, and that makes me feel super smart! I got my first 2 real cases at my practicum site, so I will actually be able to practice doing individual therapy! That is very exciting for me because last week I was feeling a bit out of sorts in comparison with the rest of my class.
Unfortunately, not everything is as good as my professional life. Then again, nothing ever is... Last week my brother asked me for a favor which I could not accommodate. Now he is not speaking to me. I think other siblings must go through this stuff all the time, but my brother and I have not gone this long without speaking in almost 10 years; not since his accident. Now, because I couldn't do this one thing for him, he is punishing me. Now there's one more man to add to the list of men in my life whose relationships with me are clearly conditional. I just never thought it would be him...
Monday, September 1, 2008
What I Did on My Summer Vacation
Hello fellow bloggers! And by that I mean Michele, because I think she's the only one who reads this. :) As summer draws to a close, I was just reflecting on the past few months. Overall, it has been kind of a slow summer. No vacations, other than the trip to Iowa. No summer flings. Nothin'. Maybe that's ok. Maybe it's just what I needed.
There was some more baby-mama-drama from K and his soon-to-be-ex-wife, so I ended it. I told him to call me when he was done playing games. Needless to say, I haven't really heard from him since then. One interesting point about this... When I ended it with him, I told him that I deserved better, that I deserved to be with someone who was willing to fight for me and who would be there for me. Although I may have felt this many times before in my life, this is the first time I have ever said it out loud. Yeah me!!
Also on the relationship front, I never finished reading Bitches, but I will someday. After having some time to reflect on this part of my summer, I stick with my initial reaction to these types of books - they're toxic. The most tumultuous part of my summer was after I got back from Iowa when all that drama was going on, I was reading that book, and spending tons of time with one of my girlfriends who lives by those types of books. As soon as I put the book away and started listening to my gut again, the drama subsided. And recently, when it reared its ugly head again, I didn't play into it, I cut it off. Done. Those books teach women rules, and then they get so involved in what they think they should be doing or saying or feeling, that they forget to listen to themselves and how they actually feel. A more helpful relationship book would involve teaching women skills to learn how to listen to their own instincts, not the rules according to Dr. Laura. Maybe I should write that... Yeah right, in my "spare" time.
As some of you may notice, and again, by that I mean Michele, I started a separate blog for my Ethics class. Who knows, it may turn out to be more interesting than this one!
xoxo
♥
There was some more baby-mama-drama from K and his soon-to-be-ex-wife, so I ended it. I told him to call me when he was done playing games. Needless to say, I haven't really heard from him since then. One interesting point about this... When I ended it with him, I told him that I deserved better, that I deserved to be with someone who was willing to fight for me and who would be there for me. Although I may have felt this many times before in my life, this is the first time I have ever said it out loud. Yeah me!!
Also on the relationship front, I never finished reading Bitches, but I will someday. After having some time to reflect on this part of my summer, I stick with my initial reaction to these types of books - they're toxic. The most tumultuous part of my summer was after I got back from Iowa when all that drama was going on, I was reading that book, and spending tons of time with one of my girlfriends who lives by those types of books. As soon as I put the book away and started listening to my gut again, the drama subsided. And recently, when it reared its ugly head again, I didn't play into it, I cut it off. Done. Those books teach women rules, and then they get so involved in what they think they should be doing or saying or feeling, that they forget to listen to themselves and how they actually feel. A more helpful relationship book would involve teaching women skills to learn how to listen to their own instincts, not the rules according to Dr. Laura. Maybe I should write that... Yeah right, in my "spare" time.
As some of you may notice, and again, by that I mean Michele, I started a separate blog for my Ethics class. Who knows, it may turn out to be more interesting than this one!
xoxo
♥
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